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Imitation is the highest form of flattery Nov. 17th, 2006 @ 05:53 pm
From the other side of the clouds

Suddenly there were words in my head, and then, like a wisp they’ve left me. There was a picture of emotions I had to explain the whole phrase, but now I’m left with a memory. A vague picture of something resonant, something that struck a harmony within my inner fabric but I can’t find that note again. All I have for you is the phrase, the trigger. But when I click it on this time, nothing happens. Gone, so fast, just like that. Words are so goddamn elusive.
It makes me wonder why writers resort to vices when they can’t put two words together to tie their shoes. Do they think that scotch invigorates their imagination? All I ever get is a desire to get fatter. A desire to be more slovenly, and yes I had to look that up to make sure I was correct. Slovenly it is. I don’t get new words or fresh ideas, just a fascination with the nothing. A thought about no words and no places. Like a room with no doors and no windows where the prisoner is kept for a thousand eternities. No words exist there. No thoughts exist there.
I had a thought, but it escaped me. Someone stirred the waters with another stone as soon as one was dropped. Instead of a wave of ripples, you have an earthquake and fault lines and cracks. There’s nothing moving below the surface, just a couple of old stones resting on the bottom. At least I got this. At least I said something. But I sure wish I could tell you what it was like, to be on the other side of the clouds. I sure wish I could explain heaven and hell. And like that, the waters are calm. He dipped his staff in the water and where the drops fell, the continents formed but I suspect when he was done, there was still nothing more than was there before.

Nov. 4th, 2006 @ 09:43 pm
Hey guys, I wanted to let you know that you won't see jess and i's pretty faces in church tommorow. We've plans that require us being home. But we'll see you next week!

this was just a way of avoiding lots of angry phone calls :)

Nov. 2nd, 2006 @ 08:37 pm
I'm famous!!! Go to the link below and listen. Go to 17 minutes thirty seconds. Listen to it, its me. I'm famous now!


Nov. 1st, 2006 @ 08:19 am
1. Would you get back with your last ex if you could?

2. What color shirt are you wearing?

3. Would you kiss anyone on your friends list?
Jess is on my friends list, right?

4. Do you have a 'thing' for someone on your friends list?
Yup. More like something with, but a thing nonetheless

5. How many people on your top friends list do you know in real life?

6. How many kids do you want to have?
5, so long as I don't have conehead kids

7. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
prett muc

8. What name would you want besides the one you have?

9. Would you ever make out with someone of the same sex?

10. What did you do for your last birthday?
Drank. A Li'l

11. What's your main ring tone on your phone?
Something. Who knows what it sounds like. When jess calls its "we don't need no education"

12. What time did you wake up today?

13. What were you doing two nights ago?

14. Do you like having your hair pulled?
Sure, catch me if you can

15. Name something you can't wait to do.
get a real job

16. Last time you saw your mom?
More than a month ago

17. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself?

18. If you had $250,000, what would you do with it?
Buy one Car. Quit School. Get Fat.

20. Have you ever talked to Tom?
I talk to myself alot

21.Describe the underwear you have on right now?

22. Last thing you ate?

24. Your least favorite month?

25. What's the last piece of clothing someone borrowed from you?
Jess is wearing my shirt as we speak

26. Who is getting on your nerves right now?
My Butt

27. Most visited web page?

28. Last person you text messaged?
David, probably

29. Last person to make you pissed off?
David, probably

30. Would you take a bullet for your best friend?
David, probably

32. Favorite food?
Davi... Nope, its pizza!

33. Favorite dessert?

34. Have you been to Europe?

35. If someone you hated died, what would you do?
Do a little dance, make a little love, get down tonight!

Oct. 12th, 2006 @ 07:49 pm
5 Wierd things about me:

1) I prefer to use bathroom facilities to do the number 2 in public places. I like the sense of privacy in a stall and prefer industiral toilets and toilet seats over home seats. I'm also afraid of stopping up toilets. How embarrasing is it to use the plunger? Or, if you aren't careful the toilet overflows and you have dirty water everywhere.

2) I blow my nose less than 10 times a year.

3) When I drive, I like to know why everything happening on the road happens. So when a car flashes my lights at me, I get a little nervous if I can't figure out why...

4) I check email incessantly. Often, I don't respond to emails that go to my inbox for a couple days.

5) I can read a 400 page pulp-novel in less than four hours. If I read a book I usually finish it in less than three days.
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Hi people who live in frederick.
Sunday @ 5 we're having a bbq bonfire and fun at my mom's house. So come. Bring junk food. And Games (outdoor preffered)


ps- this is because I'm lazy. And I here confess to that trait. blech.
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blah... So I'm in favor of in general being like the following: People are going to say or do things that aren't always coherent and that's a fact of life. Being coherent usually places you outside of any major mainstream group, in my opinion. Anyways, so I hear about a film and one thing leads to another and I look up this website and find articles, and here is a fun one: http://kidsinministry.com/Articles.Teachings/WhosToBlame.html

So thats interesting... I dunno, I guess I just don't prescribe to the theory that our lives should be problem free. So finding yourself in a major calamity isn't the result of someone's fault all the time. I'm just perplexed by why someone would think that we could possibly avoid every major calamity to come our way. I mean, if taht were true then it would be Jesus' fault for being crucified, right? Like he knew what was going to happen, and so if he did then he should have avoided it. Maybe she's 100% right. Maybe disaster can be avoided in just that way. I guess my idea of God's providence is different than hers. I see it as God can give grace in that he averts us from tragedy, but if we aren't averted or if we miss the signs, I don't then think that we're somehow at fault. The world is a broken place, and things will go wrong on a regular basis. I don't agree with her, and I think her reasoning is a little off. It's also worrisome, she runs a children's ministry... How is it that people who are gifted to do certain things so well always take other responsibilities that aren't theirs to take.
Its like with musicians who are expected to say something spiritual while they do concerts, or ones who feel that expectation. Sure, its a good thing when a music group can make a witness through what they say, but their primary calling isn't theology. That makes them liable to say something totally wrong just because they feel the pressure to do so. If people stuck to the things that they are called to do, which also are the things that mix best with their personality, and let the other jobs be done by those who should do those jobs, then maybe there would be less silly junk floating around. Blah.
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Hey everyone from Frederick. Some of you have received my evite, some of you have not. If you did not, comment here, and you will receive one. But I need your correct email address (or just simply your email address). So you know why... We're throwing and easter egg hunt this saturday at my mom's house!!! So hurry up and comment already!
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Your Homicidal Rampage! by crash_and_burn
Your name:
Weapon of Choice:A fishing rod
Your Favorite Target:Americans
Your Kill Count:1,386,829,121
Your Battle Cry:"Who let the dogs out?"
Years You Spend in Jail:19
How Much Money In Damages You Cause:$174,238,617,374,309
Your Homocidal Insanity Level:: 87%
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